My Birthright

Brian, one of the apprentices, has been flowing his fears around having a family. He says as he flowed, he felt this great sense of empowerment--this feeling that his very nature is to be in a family. It is not something he has to struggle to be--it is who he is. It is his birthright.

Like someone who suddenly discovers that he is of royal blood, or there is a great treasure within his own home, a light that has always been buried inside.

Kris smiles to himself and says that Brian is absolutely right. "That is who you are. Who you have always been. It is just been clouded over. You just have denied it, resisted it. Welcome in who you really are."

"Say Yes"

We are traveling up the Belize river in a small motor boat. There are 40 of us in the boat, packed in tight, like sardines. The snakelike river seeps slowly into our Souls. I am carrying a burden, the weight of all these fears--money worries, work worries, relationship worries, worry worries. All of it a burden, weighing my soul down.

"Maybe my relationship will fall apart," I think. "Maybe I'll go broke," I think. "Maybe I'll get fired," I think.

All of these worries on an endless loop in my mind. The record player of misery. And today's number one song, "Everybody thinks you are a failure."

Wow--it's no wonder I feel unhappy.

I take a deep breath in. I begin to set my intent for traveling on this journey, this dream cruise, so far from home. "Dream cruise," I think to myself, "so far it's been a nightmare for me."

But what really is the problem.

Another deep breath in. I go back to my intent. Within my own mind I say, "I intend to live my highest Self." Again and again. I keep repeating those words in my mind. Like a mantra. It pulls me in. I feel the energy of that intent. It pulls me in deeper into my Soul, just as this river leads us deeper into the heart of Belize.

It's hot. I am sweating. The winds feels so good on my face. I love the feel of being out in the water.

I breath in again.

I hear the voice, the still small voice within, "Say Yes."

My body relaxes. I say, "Yes."

I repeat the word, "Yes" and it goes deeper into my body, into my heart, into my mind.

I say "Yes" to all my fears. I allow them all in. I surrender my resistance. I breathe them into my body deeply, as I breathe this thick air in deeply.

"Yes."
"Yes."
"Yes."

The fears around money--"Yes".
The fears around relationship--"Yes".
The fears around work--"Yes".
The fears around spiritual life--"Yes".

All of it.

All of my life.

"Yes."
"Yes."
"Yes."

I feel as if I am being hypnotized. Deeper and deeper. Mesmerized. "Yes", softly now, as the boat slows, and the water ripples. "Yes", as the wind touches my face like a symphony on my skin. "Yes", as the wind flows onward into the reeds on shore of the river with a sound so beautiful that my whole soul lights up. "Yes", as the white crane flies so close to my body that I can feel the flap of its wing as it passes. "Yes" to the sound of the monkey's cry. "Yes" to the boat, to the river, to all the souls with me. "Yes" to my life, to this world, to everything passing by.

"Yes" I say, and suddenly I realize that I am in love with my life. I am in love with this moment and all that it holds. There is nothing lacking. Sitting on this river. In this boat. In this sun. With sweat dripping off my body. I am in love with my life. My life is overflowing. There is more joy in it than I realized. I have the relationship I always desired and more. I love my work. I am surrounded by loving friends. It is all here. It is all now. I was simply blinded by my fears. Consumed by the same old songs, the same old stories, the same old words.

As I allowed them in, as I surrendered to them, my life unfolded at my feet in the grandest majesty.