At the Ocean of Our Selves

We meet outside to do a process on the rocky coastline. We stand in line. I look at Kris. I can see the love that is emanating from him. I look into his eyes. I can see how much he wants all of us to come into their true Self, to move beyond their reactions, their fragments. I've never seen such love before.

They ask me to be a gatekeeper. I'm partially excited. Partially relieved. There's been this struggle going on, feeling like no one liked me, like I was a failure, like everyone else was better than me. It's strange, as I get to this place where I am willing to make movement for Self, then I no longer care about what happens around me. It is all for Self. So I take my place, and I ask each individual, "Are you willing to leave behind the remnants of your past?" And I look in their eyes, and they say "yes". Some have more intent. Some are totally willing. I can see that in them. I can see their willingness to do whatever it takes. Others are holding back. I can see that too.

We walk through this bric a brac...full of junk...I had been out there a couple days before when Kalyn asked Howard and I to hold the intent. I made a purpose circle out there. I sat out there and prayed to live my highest Self to come from Self. As we walk through the bric a brac, we see it as all of the things that have held us back from our own divinity, all the junk, all the false beliefs, all the fragmented personalities. And as we pass through the bric a brac we make it out to the shore...to the unlimited possibility that is the ocean.

I walk out there. I have left my old life behind. I have left my old personality behind. I have left all my fragments, my false beliefs...and I look out...and what is left but my Self. I have nothing left to hold on to (though some part of me wants to hold on). And I feel as if everything in this world is an extension of myself. and I am an extension of that. I look at people and feel as if I am meeting myself again for the first time. I feel so much love, so much connection. Kris comes up to me. He hands me a piece of coral, about the size of my palm. And he says let this shell be a reminder of the where your unlimited Self comes into form. Just as this ocean comes into form in the piece of this coral. I thank him.

Kalyn comes over and says, "Wouldn't it be great if we could be here all the time?" I say "Yes." She says, "Joe, why do you think everyone says you look so young? What are they seeing?" I know what she is talking about. It is my emotional body, but I don't want to say that, but I know that it is true. I know that I need to mature and grow my emotional body. I need to become more of an adult. Self responsible. And I am willing to do that. So I come out to the ocean of self, and I meet my unlimited potential, and my limited Self, working through its difficulties, its barriers and its pain.